You're My Past

I didn't tell you
..I didn't want to hurt you
Didn't want to burden you
With my pain.

But why should I care?
You didn't seem to mind hurting me


What do I have to lose?
I've already lost you


I cried
Every night
When you didn't answer your phone.

I didn't eat
I couldn't think
Sometimes it was hard to keep going

I felt trapped
It was hard sometimes to breathe
I didn't feel like myself at all

I even did
That thing I promised myself
I would  never do again.
It involves a razorblade...
You can get the rest.
You always said you were good at figuring things out.

So why do I tell you all this now?

Because I'm better now.

I don't need you.

I used to reread those text messages
Imagine your voice
Talk to your voicemail for hours, even though you couldn't check it

I don't anymore

I don't need you

You always said you cared,
So how could you do this to me?
Do you know how much it hurt?
Do you know how bad you hurt me?

I don't think you do.
I don't think you ever will.

You don't need to call me anymore.

I won't answer anymore.

Don't text.
Don't call.
Don't bother.

This
Is
How
I
Get
Over
You.

It may still hurt for a while
It probably won't heal just yet
Yes, part of me still misses you

But now I'm free

No more waiting for you

I do miss you.
I'll admit it.

Sometimes I wish... it hadn't ended.
But I can do better.

Someone who doesn't just SAY they care...
Someone who actually SHOWS it.
Someone who has time for me.

That's my future
And you're my past.