Spill

And if it takes the drugs
to calm my nerves
    I give in cause i said i would
    tho I could do without pre-destiny
                                                 messin with me

                   .Hold.:.Me.:.Back.

Were teaching..
                    my begger's philosophy
                                                       if you cant Love me
                                     

                                       dont ignore me
                                

                                \\  i await your attack  //

                                                  Shroud the -silver- lining
                                                   in a blanket of Experience
                                                 when you climb the  /mountain\
                                               find your |holy| water (and rinse)
     xX Drown away all this *Madness Xx
        |and your fixation with falling|

There's nothing left to say
so im >stalling

I {thought} of you
but anymore
a {thought} is all
                      .:thats what you get:.

                       You wanted love
                              ~outlive it
 
                       I wont [burden] your bedframe
i wont [blight] your heart
                       be .down with .done with me
thats the 1first and 2last part

                                 There was no +magic+ in the moment
                                                 just the mystery of (urgent!) need
                                 and you want to own it
                                                 without knowing how i xbleedx


                             im not fucking telling
                             but ill let you in on hints.

                             All that shit you been selling,
                             find someone else to convince.

"Im not up for your style of debauchery."
                                   "No, im not saying youre not hot to me,
                                          Youve just got this sullen #edge#
                                       that's sent me strait into sudden doubt"

No, dont go and 'kill' me or anyone
Everything now is just ''live'' without

I wont have you worry hunny~
     ::we are nothing::
there's naught to think about




I WILL SCREAM TILL EVERYTHING FAKE FALLS APART

(ill be in this dark hole waiting, its not safe to come out.)


`say` the sicko starts the riots
but one was brave enough to `say`

                                 "aLL this is roTTing us awaY"

                                    ive glorified*
                              and glamorized*
                             A XdemonX
now i dont know whats |real|
              im clueless with life
do we live with-
                    how we think
                                or how we feel?

There's no **mystic** on the mountain
                   coming down to \Speak\ this right

(("Death is lighter than a feather"))

   \and life just a heavy load/
           begging you to              {explode!)

                              Could you fit in the head of a [Rape]ist
                           /// or a massacre masochist ///
         Do such thoughts leave you trembling~~
         ~~or are you b.r.o.k.e.n. to the bone

                               Life lost in thought...

                               !   !    !    !     !     !

                                Why do I exist???

What's with the [sudden] rEsIstAncE,
  on our ||path|| to the -=grave?=-

    Im more concerned with the .;'fireworks';.
                    than waiting around

          or trying to Save

                            you!

   When it all goes up in /\flames/\
                                  my \walls\ are madness (not protection)
                   petty pain, rhythmic child's games
  *xstarvedx dead for attention*
{{tho i remember a hundred names..}}    ABCDEFG

ill die alone-

                                         in XxSelf reflectionxX