Sometimes words can be daunting,
other times they're just plain haunting.
Some words are loosely used,
yet you KNOW they could NEVER apply to you.
DRUGED, RAPED, ABUSED:
You hear these phrases used,
in a nightmare since, or on the news,
but you dont think about them twice
because it could NEVER happen to you.
At least thats how I always was,
naive and unaware
that I'd end up alone and scared,
because I wasn't as invincible as I'd once thought
and for my actions I got caught up in a situation
where I was victimized by his expectation.
To be alone with someone you think you know,
as he slips you a drug to help him show
the thing he want from you the most,
you lose consciousness with a strong since of morose.
5 hours later,
when you awake
you don't know what happened but your body does more than ache.
You're naked next to someone you had considered a friend,
wanting nothing more than the truth to bend.
To wake up in your own bed,
with nothing but a memory of a scary nightmare in your head.
The visit to the hospital a blur,
as a rape kit is done
strong emotions begin to occur.
all you are sure of is that you want to run.
Run,
far away
to a place in your life that was all filled with games to play.
Where life was an excuse for fun.
A place where I always got my way,
and my happiness was dependent on nothing but the sun.
But of course no matter how hard I tried,
i couldn't do anything but look my mother in the eye
and beg her not to cry.
Comments
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"The visit to the hospital a blur,
as a rape kit is done
strong emotions begin to occur.
all you are sure of is that you want to run." - This creates very good imagery. You feel as though you are actually there. You see the doctor, and the hospital bed. Great job on that.
"But of course no matter how hard I tried,
i couldn't do anything but look my mother in the eye
and beg her not to cry." - This part really hit me hard. It's an awful feeling trying to make the people around you be hurt by what was done to you. It's almost as though you want them to not be upset because it hurts you more knowing that something that was not your fault and out of your hands is affecting so many people. I love how you touched base on that, because usually when talking about these kinds of subjects people don't pay attention to that aspect.
I thought this was a very good write. -
Wow
Yeah this is a very good description of what happens, i wasnt drugged but i have be raped....by a close friend that i didnt think would force me to do things i didnt want to. i love your emotions throughout, great write -
This isn’t bad and I hate to criticize it so I will be as constructive as I can.
I don’t understand “in a nightmare since”. Sometimes you use the apostrophe in your contractions and sometimes you don’t. That’s distracting.
I think “a strong since of morose” possibly would be expressed better as “a strong sense of apprehension” or “foreboding”. Morose is the wrong tense.
I hope this didn’t happen to you. If it did, I wish I could tell you it would get better later. I can tell you, counseling helps big time. Even with needing edits, you get two applauds.
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