Reluctant Release

Reluctant Release

Today is the day
I have made my choice
To release these bonds
And in freedom, rejoice

But the decision made
Was reluctant indeed
For to let go of this vice
Is to take a part of me

Pleasure and comfort,
Laughter and relief
Were some of things
Enhanced, I believed

A safe and happy place
Where only I could go
My own little world
No on could follow

This was my high
The fix I wanted so bad
Maybe not an addiction
But still it was sad

To depend on her presence
At any which time
Cost me so much
Every nickel and dime

A habit and a problem
That surely couldn't stay
If I was to grow up
And better myself today

For in the end
I will be stronger without
The stinky green leaf
And the pipe at the mouth

Now I say goodbye
To that chapter in my life
All the pain and sorrow
Through struggling strife

And from here I look forward
To opportunities ahead
The second chance I've been given
Instead of wading in dread

So here I declare
This reluctant release
To restore what I had
My sober peace