darkness is a friend

you are a friend
     and yet a enemy
you are so deceiving
     and i love you
when i hurt
    you give me your blade
and then you help me
    to see less pain
i am frightened
   and you can see
you try to hand it to me
   but i must not believe
the lies you used to tell
   sound so good right now
but i cant lose again
   for love is my deception
you are the one i held so close

  and now so far away

i can not see the faith i had

   thanks to you

and that day

   suicide was my only way

please don't make me

   do this

i am hurting and

   want it to stop

but no one will listen

    anymore

you think I'm to young to hurt

     well please tell that to my heart

when everything goes wrong

   what should i do

i want to bleed once more

   and understand

my losses

    why don't you love me daddy

was i that bad you could hurt me

     now that i am scared

i feel that i must go

   i never meant to hurt anyone

not a single soul

   but i guess I'm not alright

and should be locked away

   please understand that i love you

in my cell these days

    i would have killed you daddy

but was to scared you see

    you were all i had in life

and now its come to be

   that once you did something

wrong

   no one blamed you

just me

    so explain to me my dearest daddy

what should i believe?