So tiny, so small.
The biggest blessing,
The greatest hope,
My first baby boy.
Your life was all too short,
But my love will always be,
For you were my blessing, my hope,
Even if you never took your first look.
Everything I hoped for,
And all I ever dreamed,
Was you to find some peace.
You never saw the light,
Only my safe dark,
I never got to hold your hand,
But that is alright.
Grow wings my baby boy,
Grow and fly up to the stars!
Be happy my love,
And we will meet one day.
A hope and a blessing,
A star in my night,
All lost too early,
And always loved.
Author notes
3) babies
I may be young, but I've done my errors too, and one of them was an abortion. Do not ask me how I know it was a boy, but one thing is for sure, I still miss my first baby!
It was hard for me to write this poem, so I hope you are kind with your words, since this is the first time I talk open about it, and no one els knows.
A contest entry
- Please Remember My Angel Caleb by Angel Of Heaven99.
475 points, ended April 17, 2008, 5 entries
Bronze trophy winner
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Such a touching poem to honour your baby. I have lived through losing my son to miscarriage and know the pain that losing a child brings all too well. A very emotional piece, worthy of the recognition of trophies.
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Such a beautiful and heartfelt write.
A sad and painful experience, brought tears to my eyes.
I'm glad you had the courage to share this, thanks.

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so sad to always live with this tragedy.
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This is a tearfully sad poem, i'm glad i came across this one. To lose something so dear and not ever getting the chance to hold, feel or touch it, is just beyond words. I'm sorry to hear about this lost but like you said...
you will meet again one day.
All the best to you and congrats on the trophies
Ken

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Thank you for this wonderful comment, I am too glad you came accross this one.
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I can understand that saying that you had no choice from the doctor. instead of putting you and the baby in danger and havnig to suffer more, you did what you had to do. it must have been the hardest day of your life...the hardest thing to do. I know if it was me, I would have probably been depressed for a long while after that. you did an amazing job coming out and talking about it dear.
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Thank you, dear. You are so kind.
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we all make mistakes and errors in life...whether it be when we are young or older. although I do not believe in abortion, I can see the sadness. this piece is a sad piece and I can see that you regret having had such a thing happen in life. it's something that you probably will never forget and forgive yourself for doing. it's always nice to write your feelings out and express what others do not see or know. it helps ease a little of the pain as well even if the pain will never ever fade. it takes courage to write words that are full of pain, hurt, and sadness....and that speak truth. it must have taken a lot to write this piece. like I said, I do not believe in abortion but this shows it in a different point of view for me in a way. keep on writing and never give up hope.
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I wasn't left much choise from the doctor. It was something I had to do else I would bring danger to both me and the child. And you are right, I will never forget or forgive myself for that.
I thank you for your comment.
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This was such a touching poem.. I am only 20 years old and already I have lost 3 babies.. Not on purpose but because of life itself.. I have written about losing them as well and I know that it is really hard.. I am proud of you for having the courage to write this..You are not alone in your pain.. Thank you for having the courage to write this for mothers who can't..
Angel
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Thank you for your kind words.
I am tuly sorry to hear about your losses, it is the worste thing that can happen in life, to loose a baby. They are so innocent and small, but rarely get to play a part in any situation.
I hope the future will mend your wounds and make you able to carry life again, best wishes.
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This had made me cry as a mother who has lost a baby I know your pain a lost is a lost that is what many do not understand and will never see because they are so stuck in a way of though that is bought out bu hate yes you might be young but you have your whole life ahead of you don't ever forget that and rremember that you have an angel watching over you always Take care much love


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Thank you for your kind words.
I feel sorry for those who can not accept the changes in life, and all I can do is hope that they will leave me alone for my decision. But one thing is for sure, I will make up for what I did.
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I cried. This kind of hit home with us losing Chloe. This poem touched me heart is ways it can't for most. Best of luck in the contest!


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Thanks for posting this!


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I'm so glad you decided to write about this. It can't have been easy for you to deal with. Rest assured that your darling baby is indeed cradled in Jesus' arms. Thanks for posting this.
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You are right that this was the hardest write I have ever done and thank you for your kind words. I hope he is safe and at peace, and dont hate me too much...
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Amazing poem my friend, and this would of been the hardest write in the world to do, I was going to be a father to a little girl but a miscarriage with my now X Girlfriend caused it to never be, I don't know what more I can say I guess you never do get over it but god works in an strange way maybe it was just not the write time. Amazing write my friend and I wish you only the best.


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Thank you for your kind comment, my friend. This was, indeed, the hardest write I have ever done. And I am terrebly sorry to hear about your loss as well. You never do get over it, no. I will never truly get over it, but I have learned of my mistakes.
Thank you again - Meroza
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I did the same thing. :(
But it was a life or death situation. I miss mine as well. He or she haunts my dreams nightly and I feel as though what I did was rite...and wrong. But no matter what We all do love our first children as well as the next ones in line. Always though I dream of my first and wonder if it was painless. I really do hope so because I know living in this world now as it is anyways would have been prehaps much harder for him or her. I love how well you expressed the begining and ending of this poem. Much love is put into it and a sense of pain. You will be fine though and I know how you feel.
Always there for you!
~Tess!~
P.S. I need to read more.

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Thank you for your kind comment, my dear friend.
I do hope so too, that my dear little first born did not suffer, I really do. And I've often thought as you have, what would the world have given my baby boy, how would he grow up to be? It makes me sad thinking those thoughts since nothing I do can ever bring him back to me. What I have done can not be undone and I can only pray that he did not suffer for my foolishness.
- Meroza aka Phan
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This is a very sweet poem and to me a loss is a loss whether it be abortion or miscarriage or stillbirth or just death. You were very strong in your heart to write this for me. I think it is very beautiful and sweet. I will cherish this always. Thank you and many blessings


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damn, honey im so sorrryyy... oh wow. really , this is making me almost cry, take care. -eleno


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I am so sorry
A death of any baby is hard I am sorry for your loss I do understand and of you need anyone to talk to feel free to leave me a message
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Thank you for your kind words, and your offer. I will keep it in mind.
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