Shattered

First shatterd
Second broken
Third burned
Fourth torn

The first one
He was perfect
Except for one thing
Everything
It makes no sense
Why did he
Of everyone
Have to be
The one
My first

I was too young

I was too immature

For him

For boys

And he was too immature too

And had no clue

Where we were going

And I wish he did

With confusion
He shattered my heart
And I shattered his

There was a year of lonliness

Then him
My second
My perfect
My dream
My best friend
Whom I jealously claimed as mine
Even when he wasn't
And when he was mine
I wasn't good enough
But she was

I think

He was just confused

But as far as I was concerned
He was no longer mine

I was just a girl

A girl he used

For all the wrong reasons

A one sided love

A regret

That will never leave
He broke my heart
So I broke his

There was a month of forgotten dreams

And then impulsiveness
Brought me my third

Me, his first

A dance

A dream

A kiss

One month

one date

Two months

three dates

Three months

one date

Fours months

two dates

Five months

No dates

Six

Seven

Eight

Nine

Ten

Eleven

No dates

Tweleve

One date

Thirteen

No dates

I was lonely

He knew it

He felt bad

He could see

He wanted to make it better

But when he let go

He burnt me

And no matter how much I should've wanted

To burn him back

I couldn't

I loved him

This burn

This scar

I don't regret

I never will

Three days

A dance

A friend as a date

Another friend

Asked to dance

I was sick

Unsteady

Sugarhigh

Sad, still burned

Impulse

A kiss

Another dance

More kisses

No going back

His first

My fourth

Keep on going

One

Two

Three

Four

Weeks

Going too fast

Already farther than my first

Farther than my third

Too far

Can't go back

Lost

My heart torn

I could stand it

I tore his heart

I ran away

Away from it all

This heart

First shattered

Second broken

Third burned

Fourth torn

I couldn't stand the pain

Just hide

Run away

Forever?

Is that long enough to heal?

Or is there no time?

One month

Two month

Three month

Here I am

Lonely

Fake smiles

Fake laughs

Fake life

No sleep

Tears every night

Confusion everyday

I'm not truely alive anymore

Because I am shattered