What I'd really like to say..

I do still think about those what if's,
and could've beens....
but I have those could be's,
should be's,
makes anywhere we happen to be home,
silly-happy, best friends,
can't believe he chose me,
complete me, love you completely,
kiss me sweetly,
and "oh god, just fuck me!",
moments.

And I don't think a girl could ask for more.
that's why I said yes.
So why when you are completely in love with someone can you still wonder?
I guess it really is just human nature.

but love isn't always dandy...

we do have those,
I know I'm right,
can't argue how i feel,
feelings vs. thoughts (the female vs. male kanundrum),
God I hate it when he/she___________,
I know you think you have a map of the world programmed in your head but....

and you know the funniest thing about fighting is,  5minutes into I always forget what it's about, and realize I just want to crack a joke or kiss him, but I'm so damn mad and i have no idea why so I go on fighting trying to justify myself till i stomp off or ask him "Do you even know why I'm mad?!?!?" just to buy some time and remember. stupid huh?

human nature, of the female sort I suppose. But I love him, and I'm marrying my best friend, a girl really couldn't ask or wish for more. except maybe not to get cancer, or a vinereal disese.

always on the sunny side,
steph