For only him

I run my fingers softly through your hair,
                  and whisper goodnight.

Do you feel me?
                Do you wait for this moment?

I fight the tears as you walk away,
                    forgetting to kiss me goodbye.

Would you regret this moment,
                          if it were the last one?

I save your messages to my phone,
                              I play them on days when your distant.

If you have time today,
                could you call and leave another?

I pray for your patience and understanding,
                    and also for my constant need of each of them.

Do you pray for me,
              or have I become a lost cause?


When I am unable to feel your love,
                        I pretend that I am ok.
                              That we are ok.

                                      But in reality we are not.

Maybe in time you will give back that promise you made,
                                for your unconditional love.

Will you?
    Your good at keeping your word.
               

Your body is so dead to my touch,
          do you have to resist reaching for me?
              Or has the feelings really been taken away?

Falling in love with you was worth it,
                  I regret nothing.

I am sorry to have let you down,
                        once again.

I truly am.