As this day closes, this is what’s in store,
Another tear falls, maybe a few more.
News was kind of grim, but that’s okay,
I shall live the next year, fighting to stay.
Treatment after treatment, I hope it works.
Hoping I can get past, the pain and hurt.
Body is swollen; anger grows in me.
Why does it happen, that life want’s me free?
Little girls around me, it pains me now.
I have 3 years, I have to fight some how.
I have to watch them grow to be eighteen,
Then start a family, and live their dream.
Hair will start falling, I’ve been here before,
Struggle with urge to die, then live once more.
Hearts filled with dread, I feel so alone,
Knowing that people, have fought the unknown.
Some days blacking out, I get lost in time,
Then other days, I am doing just fine.
Appointments scheduled, many yet to come,
Another six months, to get this task done.
Fever has been high, in and out of bed,
Feelings overwhelm me, thoughts can’t be read.
To struggle to live, to live to struggle too,
Working hard with life’s tasks, to make it through.
Confusion grips me, as I plan my will,
Children get all, but that’s not too much still.
Tears of pain fall, as I watch the young play.
She is only 6, as mom fades away.
Wonders if mom will live, or give up the fight.
My heart aches for my three, as I lose the light.
Body started swelling, losing strength fast,
How much struggling, before my breaths the last?
Climbing out of bed, I wipe away tears.
Knowing there’s one more day, to face my fears.
Death isn’t the answer; I will fight to win.
With each passing day, I will do it again.
Even though I know its best, I can not lie,
This is so hard, I’m afraid to die.
Yet I know my faith, He won’t desert me,
Cancer can be released, and I’ll be free.
So I will walk strong, with my head held up,
I shall face the year, with Him filling my cup.
Author notes
Those who know me know.
Done in triple sonnets( forward, reversed the forawrd again)
A contest entry
- Ten Thousand Points of Rhyme - The Invitational! Named Poets Only by cricketjeff.
6500 points, ended April 4, 2008, 17 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Please tell me what you think
Comments
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In many ways the "best" poem in the contest, scored a maximum for content and for hitting the theme. Not only covering the past year or the next year but both. Coveres a mothers love and passion and fear brilliantly.
Unfortunately the style is not quite the style we look for in these contests. .
We look for machine oil smoothness and plusperfect rhyme, Tory works in a more passionate genre, knocking a point off for slant rhymed pairs and harsh meter brought the score down to equal Amera's third place poem. This poem is not really fourth but join third, AP does not allow for such things.
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This is a strong piece that i understand all to well My dear wife died just over a year ago having suffered with breast cancer for 12 years I can say nothing but keep battling,it seems awful to praise this poem knowing what it is about but i think you have expressed things so well Excellent
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