As I lay here in the dark
looking at thin trails of blood
as razors leave their mark.
Leaving deep cuts upon my wrists
replacing misery with a sickly red pain.
This addicting pleasure
blood pouring from my veins
Its my secret drug
and thin white scars i what i gain.
This is when I throw away my smiling mask,
and tears and blood flow like rain.
Each scar is a reminder,
of years of misery, frustration, and hate.
But this time will be different.
This time i will bathe in the light of heavens gates.
So on the floor i lay,
enjoying these moments of pain.
Waiting for gods merciful arms to come take me away.
Author notes
i used to 1st contest option
A contest entry
- Why Suicide by SuicidalLover.
450 points, ended March 30, 2008, 23 entries
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350 points, ended April 5, 2008, 15 entries
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1650 points, ended April 27, 2008, 95 entries
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Comments
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reminds me of me..<3
you are really good
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How someone can make you feel this bad that you have to take this action shows the hurt and betrayal that many people feel... I can relate in many ways, as my exes james and karl were the kind that lay guilt and even violence occasionally on you, so you just ended up hating yourself so mcuh.
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Great write. Very dark, and heart-wrenching. Your imagery was awesome.
"This time i will bathe in the light of heavens gates.
So on the floor i lay,
enjoying these moments of pain.
Waiting for gods merciful arms to come take me away."
Those lines were great. Nice way of ending the poem. Great write and thanks for entering. -
Hope you get a trophey in another contest because this isn't what I wanted.
WHY SUICIDE?
Good luck to you. -
wow. i think this is great!! lately alot of the new poems on AP are lacking certain thing.... (mine included.....)but fantastic nevertheless!
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Great write, and good luck in the contest.
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Interesting. It kinda made me sad. Lol. But i liked it. o.o First comment! Arn't i just cool. Lol. But, yes, i liked your poem! ^-^
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