I'm alone again,
Picturing it once more,
I'm drowning, spluttering,
Far away from shore.
It's haunting, calling,
Screaming my name.
Telling me to buy into,
Its deadly game.
The steel, it sings,
It's haunting lullaby
It's so beautiful,
I want to cry.
It begs to touch my body,
Leave its toxic kisses on my skin,
I'm so afraid...
I don't want it to win.
I don't want to give up,
I don't wish to give in,
But my mind is filled with memories,
Of the addicting, deadly sin.
To feel the blade,
It's sharp tip on my arm,
It's begging, it's instructing me,
To cause myself harm.
To feel it rip,
And tear into me,
To see the crimson teardrops,
And watch them flee.
It calls, it sings, it screams
A shrill, piercing sound
What happened to the stability,
I thought I had found?
It's all gone out the window,
And I'm a complicated mess of tears,
Sitting here shaking,
Obsessing about my fears.
It'll never end, I'm sure,
And I fear it won't get better,
I'm so scared, that someday,
I'll find myself writing a suicide letter.
I don't want to leave this earth,
I'm nowhere close to done here,
But in my mind, the blade's vision,
Is oh so very clear.
But I'm on my knees, I'm begging,
Asking it to leave me be,
To let me be the person,
I always wished to be.
Author notes
Uhh..yeah. Enjoy. Great contest!
A contest entry
- Pour out your emotions! by adema1214.
300 points, ended April 11, 2008, 13 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Thoughts? Comments? Puhlease?
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you did almostmake me cry on this i did shed a tear, great job
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once again, strong feelings and a strong message, but i think the rhyme scheme is a little forced.
i know cutting too- i cut last night in horrible angst, and today, even though i'm feeling a little better, i'm tempted to do it again.
keep fighting the part of yourself that desires self-destruction. perhaps there is nothing else that matters more as being able to encourage yourself to cope without self-loathing, and self-hurt.
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Amazing
I really like this piece,... it's sooo true.
when u think u have the strangth to stop everything calls u back to it.
Good job
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wow this is such a strong peice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
unfortunately i feel the same at the moment. i can completely relate! i hope your alright, IM me if u need anything! im always here
keep writting, and take care of yourself. dont let your demons become the death of you
love HB
xoxox
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beautiful!
Hey Kari,
Awesome writing here, very intense.
There's alot of captured pain in this piece, I think it gives the reader a tremendous sense of what cutting is like to feel.
Great piece, loved it!!!
Take Care,
Ali
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omg
this is MOST fabulous!
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wow this is really good =]
good write
freakXD
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