When you think about it
it’s kind of scary
to think that
You feel empowered
by not eating
it’s even scarier to think
that you’re weak
and slothful
and gluttonous
when You do eat
you tell Yourself
I have to eat,
we all do
it’s not healthy
it just makes it worse
Yourself tells you
You can afford to not eat
you’ll bounce back
you’re young
you’d be much happier
it really is scary
You think
maybe that pill would work
I could finally lose this
be rid of this lardish burden
but You say, SCREAM
NO, it’s not safe
you’ll kill your liver
or your stomach
or Yourself!
But Yourself whispers
no, never to You
those other people
just didn’t read the directions
it would never happen to Us
so You scream at Yourself
that you’ll do it tomorrow
but you know that You won’t
You never does
but Yourself doesn’t know that
so in the end
you just continue feeling gluttonous
except for those rare occasions
you feel empowered
cause you’re hungry.
Author notes
So yeah, this is a kinda internal battle about my weight. Things I've kinda considered and or have done at one point. Mostly not eating at times. Too scared about killing my liver to try diet pills. I purposely capitalize You, Yourself, and Us because they've become people in this conversation. Like your conscience, Angel on the right shoulder, devil on the left. Hope you like it.
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Comments
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Please loan me your eyes....
I'm not going to give you all sorts of advise or even trying to tell you that you some day will perceive yourself differently....
The only thing i know is that i can relate the tug of war between the "you, yourself & us".....
I'm long beyond the age where i'm young and able to bounce back.....but i have wisdom, the stick i use to help me up and scuffle along! LOL!
Go on!! Give me another glimpse of this wonderful thing we call life through YOUR eyes!!!
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