opening up

i just don't know how to open up
i don't know how to let you in
i've been burned so bad by love
and now i'm just trying to deal with my heart
i wanna give myself to you but baby it's just so hard
and i'm not gonna lie i'm scared
cuz everytime i give my heart i get it returned broken
so i put up all my guards and tell my emotions to leave
i don't let you in cuz i don't want you to know my weaknesses
i'm scared to love and be loved
i'm trying so hard to have faith and trust
but it's hard to have something i don't even have in myself
i'm trying baby i'm trying but it's just so hard
i know your not like the other men
but i can't help but remember the pain they put me thru
and i can't help but think your gonna do the same
i know in my mind you would never try to hurt me
but try telling my heart that
i don't think you understand me
and i don't know how to make you see
i don't have the words to say
i try to speak but the words just won't leave my toung
their stuck at the tip
so i just stare at you hoping you can see me thru my eyes
thru all the pain
all i want is for you to find my heart