waxing and waning

i am rather emotional right now,
though not entirely sure why (yet am, indeed, entirely sure why.
the question is, will i still remember if and when you repond to this statement at a later date.) i hate it
when it throbs at the right side, and makes my eyes swell up. to embrace you
would throw me into unfamiliar territories. but i want it. may just need it,
though it is but only time which can tell these things, and my tolerance
for how long
i can stand my heart weeping.