The Martyrdom Of Me

I have diminished far beyond your expectations
My ears have gone deaf listening to your recriminations
No this is no hallucination we are talking of my life
And you plan to end it, there is so much strife

So on behalf of me let me speak crassly
As nationwide people look on unabashedly
Feel free to set all your problems away to the sea
And shove the blame worth ten legions on me

I am the scapegoat the recipient of all your blame
So help me god, you have driven me insane
Taken me to the vultures made me their feed
But however much you hate to admit, it’s me you all need

You are all going to hate me
You will scarcely believe
I am not your perfect pinup
That’s something I will never be

You have wished me to fall as far as I recall
There will be no escape unless this matter you resolve
I am needy for your insults, I revel in this foolish game
I starve for your barbs because I am no longer the same

So on behalf of me let me speak crassly
As nationwide people look on brashly
Feel free to crucify me everyone knows that
I am the sole role model who has managed to fall flat

I have become the victim through no fault of my own
Judged by agnostics conducting trials never known
I am no masochist, I gain no joy from pain
I am a realist who knows her journey ends in vain

You are all going to despise me
You will scarcely believe
I am not your perfect pinup
That’s something I will never be

I know what is happening here
I see it quite clearly
It’s the martyrdom of me [The job you have taken up so kindly]
It’s the martyrdom of me [So go ahead and martyrize me]