Expectations

Everyday
We are sent
Guided into our numbered pens
And force fed unknowledgeable knowledge
And Expectations
Dictate that we must devour
The bland, unfulfilling slop
Clattered down in front of us
And as we grimace through the unbareable process
We are undoubtably expected
To learn- something...anything...
But tasteless, listless books
Do not teach me values
Grueling lethargic lectures
Have never gave to me a single moral
What I have scraped around for
My own select personal pile of intelligence
What I have engaged in
Has left me more empty
Then the digusting words and facts
Shoveled down my throated
And poured forcefully through my skin.
I have been taught
Nor by teachers with their spouts "wisdom"
But by my manipulating peers, my fellow cattle,
To never trust
For each time
I try to explore my caged atmosphere
The barbed wire of reality
Electrifies me back into my mindless slot
Of emotional insane insatiability
And instead of belonging, conforming, contorting,
My stupidity is displayed in stuborness
And i rush back to the fence of trust
My heart moving my entity
As the gentle grass of encouragement
Lures me back into a rapid pace
Into the downward struggle
Of my naive truth
And I believe,
For just a moment,
But that seems to be all it takes,
A moment in my optismitic paradise
Before the retching heat
Causes this brutal, searingly delicious pain
To converse through my remanants
Purging my idealistic tranquility of morals
With a hard dose of realism
Until I fall back
Panting, fearfully subdued
And cringing as I wait
For my repitition to resume
For my useless emotions and wants to cloud
What little logic I have left
In my barren mindscape
My Will shines through
Blinding my judgement
Until my structure will fall
my Will down for the count
And refusing to get up
To fulfill my needy Expectations
Of nothingness.