fuck

Right now...
I want to forget the past
somehow...
I want to believe that my reality doesn't exhist

Your always in the back of my mind
reminding me of "what we had"...
I wish I could rewind
and we would be one again

I can't get you out of my head
remebering is so comforting
I keep replaying every thing you ever said
every moment we spent together

how it felt so right
and so wrong at the same time
and sometimes when I couldn't sleep at night
I could look foward to seeing you

and how it felt just to be near you
How intense it felt to kiss you again
even thogh the whole time I knew
It couldn't last

and no matter how good it felt
I couldn't make you mine
and even though you said you'd wait
I knew it was a matter of time...

sooner or later
you'd have enough
and it didn't matter
how good it felt

You couldn't handle me before
so I knew you wouldn't be able to now
but I thought that I could ignore
that it all felt so pretend

I thought...as long as I didn't comit to anything...
and we had nothing more than "casual sex"
that there wouldn't be any more feelings
and I wouldn't get involved

I have tried so hard not to get hurt
I've done everything to keep from feeling this way
I put myself on alert
only to miss what was right in front of me

I'd like to believe it wasn't just lies
I want to believe it wasn't just sex
I want to believe the honesty in his eyes
but only actions will tell...

When you said we'd be together
It was just for show..
but when I say forever...
I fuckn mean it!