Leaning over his bedside
Tears overflowing in my eyes
Listening one more time
As the pulse dissipates into silence
Nothing left to do
Except to say goodbye
To the one man
Who brought me life
I have always been the
Fuck up in life
Always been shunned
As God's mistake
I have always been tortured by life
He released me
From my mistakes
Let me live again
Now I must take on life
Head on
Go back to work
With a mask of happiness painted on
Go back to abusive love
Bruises showing
Fragile heart
Available for another dose of agony
I leave him tonight
Unsure
Unhopeful
I have always been the
Fuck up in life
Always been shunned
As God's mistake
Now it is time
I go back to my self hatred
Faking to the world I am okay
I know I am full of bullshit, but they will never know
Author notes
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A contest entry
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This entry is very powerful, very sad. Good job, and good luck.
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good write.
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this is a very nice peice. good luck in my contest!
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hgus..... right there with ya hun........... together we walk the halls of hell.... thanks for sharing this and good luck in contst...!
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wow
this is deeply emotional. a very strong write. well done.
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Another very sad entry. It really makes me want to cry. It's a wonderful story line, yes...however very miserable.
It's a fantastic write, for sure.
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This entry doesn't seem to progress, which makes its content very honest, very powerful. I reread this several times, relate to bits, and hope for the best for any still experiencing such--it's a hard thing to go through.
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brings back memories
wow. realy nice poem. i can relate many ways of my past into it. but i hope not to. very well done. i realy like it. good luck. in the contest and in life.
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This write is so powerful
And taken over me
I love the whole poem
Thanks for your entry
And good luck
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This is sad, yet well done. I'm not sure it fits the picture that well, but I did enjoy reading it. And I guess it fits if you are the one standing over his grave. I think I will need to re-read this one a couple of times...lol....no problem though, as it's well done.
thank you for your entry
best wishes
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I do appreciate your effort hon. I even know the feelings you are penning of. It's just that our sorrows are of a different kind right now. I wish you well and hope that your sorrow ends soon.
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