From molehill to mountain (to nothing at all)

my friend have been telling me
I can't keep on smiling
It's just not me they say
Well it's not for the sake of trying

I'm finally doing everything
I knew I should have done at seventeen
But I'm here now singing to myself
reflecting on what my life has been

every mistake I made was worth it
It was all for a reason really
for everytime I said something I didn't mean
I now forgive myself completely

Everytime I let myself down
I don't even think about it
Nightmares of all the embaressing things I've done
They don't matter one bit

In the downfall of winter
I can feel the raindrops on my fingers
In the first summer noon
I can feel the rays of sunshine linger

I don't feel down
Life is fun and worth living
I dont feel numb
Full of love and thanks giving

I'm proud of myself
for everything I've achieved
I started this journey, vunerable and afraid
who would have believed?