letter

lost inside myself
I try to turn away
from my internal struggle
to be myself again

all day I am happy
until I go to bed
then I hear the doubts
they spin round in my head
tearing holes in my heart

would you be happier without me
would you move right on to someone new
would you miss me the way I'd be missing you
will my heart be broken
will I never be whole again
can I someday move past all this
and be your friend

are you playing games
do you not need me anymore
am i not enough
are you messing around behind my back
do you like someone else
will you break up with me
should I break up with you
will it set us free
or will I hurt us both more

these are some of the doubts
spinning around my head
I'm crying here beside you
while you're asleep in bed