[ being broken ]

being broken
by the one you love
is a feeling like you've never felt before.


and once you fall.
it's just so hard to get back up.

it feels as if the whole world is pinning you to it's core.
when in actuality,
they are all holding out a helping hand.

the only thing holding you down
was the past.
the only thing pinning your shirt down
is you.

being in love is the purest form
of happiness.
that feeling of fate.

and when it's torn out from under your feet
it's like getting the wind knocked out of you.

your whole world turns topsy turvy.
all upside down.

and it feels as if nothing can complete you
like this lost love.

and then that moment when your eyes meet his...
it's a funny story.
because his eyes; they've locked with yours before.

just never like this.

and it's not the heart breaker that you thought it would be.
it's someone new.

someone who makes you do a double take.
someone who makes you feel new.
someone who makes it feel like the new day it is.

it's a new found love.
it's just a common crush.

the one where it feels like
the butterflies and the caterpillars
are skanking to the tune of your heartbeat.

it's so new.
it's so fresh.

it gives you hope for tomorrow.
hope for today.

it puts that twinkle back in your eye.
and it makes your friends say
"wow. i think they are finally okay."
without you even needing to say anything.

it's all so fast.
it's all so sudden.

it happens so fast so sudden
you hope that it stays so much longer.

and this is what it feels like
to have just completed the puzzle of your broken heart

this is what it feels like to finally have it all sewn back together.

how does it feel knowing you are responsible for all this?
you put the ummppff back in life.

and even though you've always been there.
you just being there makes everything feel okay.

knowing he's been there
and that he'll be there
makes everything less scary.

he's always been my protector.
i just never saw it before.

he's were always my body guard.
there to inflict harm on those
who disrupted my happiness.
those whom poisoned my heart.

he did that without even lifting a finger.
just the words.
those words of encouragement.
i should've noticed them before.

i guess what i'm trying to say is.
boy right now, i'm crazy about you.
in a new found common crush sorta way. :]