All the Way There...

Raining kisses like needle points
piercing my skin,
eyes,
lips,
neck,
and then.....
all the way down,
my vision clouded
by a memory only just past.

He'd done the same thing to me,
repeating the very same ritual
which now assaulted me.
Kissing,
teasing,
whispering,
nibbling,
and oh so low... all the way down

turning to face the wall,
recoiling as though repulsed,
flinching at the tenderness in her voice,
ladden with such sweetness
my thoughts
muddled and confused,
visions of what I'd done
taunting me anew.

I could smell the tears
even without seeing them,
feel the pain,
without words to express them,
anguish, so strong,
rejection, so potent.

I'd done this a thousand times before
flinched at her touch,
but what could i say?
what words to douse her pain.
I'd shared another's haven
felt the pleasure in his kiss
felt the shiver in his touch.

Sweet blazes! help me
how could I love both so madly,
how could i love the wrong so right,
and the right so wrong.

Turning to face her,
kissing away the tears,
cuddling her in my arms
in the warmth of my embrace
and cocoon of my world
she finds solace,
the silence in the room...deafening.

Secrets to tell,
secrets to keep,
in kisses and silent promises
to give in to this one moment
to please her, for just this once
and maybe,
just maybe
someday, I'll have the balls
to spit it all out
and take what comes my way.