If i never see you again

I remember when
all that mattered was your smile
coming to school everyday
just to see you for five minutes

I remember kissing you everyday before you set foot on that bus

A smile concealed it all

pushing myself to make it everyday without seeing you

Telling myself tomorrow would be different

maybe i would see you longer

maybe you would stay

making up an excuse to be late and missing your bus

Just so we could spend the day together in the bathroom

I remember when everything was so simple

yet i made it all to complex

I wanted to please you so bad

I made you go away

by never touching you

I made up a life with you in my head

When things get bad i find myself

beating at that door begging myself to go in

but never entering

knowing that if i did things would never be okay

if i never seen you again.