I've Been Conjuring The Perfect Words

And these pictures tell a tale better than my lyrics ever good.
In its own right this is a tragedy in life.
We both know I'm honest to a fault, so I'll let you know
My promise has been broken.
Just two or three songs ago,
I've been singing songs in your name since you left.
And I'm even hoping a little bit that the water of this shower will drown me
So I never need to look into their hungry eyes ever again.

That's the girl I used to know.
That's the one I used to love.
Right there, that smile was the thing that made this whole life bearable.
I hope you know, I'm permanently damaged because of you.
I've wanted you to see the damages you've done to me.
But it's now I start to realize that you will never understand.
You will never get just how hurt I was the nights I couldn't do anything but yell.
I wish things went differently, yeah I'll be honest
You were the reason I stayed alive.

I longed for your kiss, and your warm embrace.
So I'll take this moment while I look at this photograph to be completely truthful.
Maybe you noticed, you probably didn't.
But I never said I hated you, and I never said I forgot you.
I called you a whore and wished I'd never met you.
And I promise that much is true.
Maybe I could still trust,
Maybe I could still love.

Cause can't you see.
It's been almost a year
And I still can't forget your voice.
You were the one.
Maybe things were never meant to be ok.
But you were the one.

I cried for an hour, begging you to stay.
The empty bottles and overbearing smell
were the only warning signs that I was falling apart.
And maybe you never knew, and maybe you never saw.
But I loved you.
With everything I had.
So you can deny, and revoke all my words.
But in the end, you were the one for the time.
I hope you know,
You're killing me.

Cause it's been a year, and I can't get over anything.
I hope you think of me now and then,
It seems like lately I can't get you off my mind.
I hope you shed a tear or two when you see an old picture of me,
Because I know for sure, yeah for sure.
That there was a time once, when I was the one.