I sat crossed legged on the bed.
Watching you pace back and forth.
Ranting on about something so meaningless.
All I was watching was your hands.
Beating at your thighs in anger
I closed my eyes in mere moments,
letting your shouts fade away..
and to imagine your embrace,
and remind myself why I loved you.
My lashes flicker open...
And I watch your fingers grip your jeans.
I wanted to laugh at your childish antics.
But knew better than to test you.
I
didn't
see
it
coming.
That hand rose across my damp cheek.
I faced down, wiping tears away...
No longer looking at your alter ego.
"Why do you make me do this..."
What a question to ask me...
What nerve do you have to blame me.
"I don't know"
I am so ashamed of myself right now.
Say something, stand up please!
"I'm sorry baby, I won't do it again."
Why did I just say that...
that hit must have knocked away all sense.
He
sat
beside
me
wiping
my
tears.
"I love you, but someone has to teach you."
Fuck you, I'm not a child.
Staring at my shaking hands...
"you're right baby."
Oh my god holly...shut up.
Just kick him out.
Make him support himself for once.
Do it...take a stand.
Get a freaking backbone...!
Do it now...before it's too late.
"I love you, I'm so glad you're here."
Total contradiction of my mind...
word vomit again...think next time.
You stupid idiot...
Dont' touch me right now...
God why are you letting him touch you.
"Come on baby, you know I didn't mean it"
You
Always
Didn't
Mean
it.
"I know," I said smiling weakly.
I let him kiss my cheek...
Down the nape of my neck...
And soon after we were making love.
After I lay dazed...
My heart needs him to be around.
He dressed quickly, kissed me...
And again he was gone...
I walked to my mirror...
peering at the new bruise...
I
thought
to
myself
again
How you gonna cover that one?
You're freaking brilliant.
Yeah another pound of make-up.
They all know what's happening.
No one is that stupid Holly.
You fell..isn't an excuse anymore.
What am I gonna tell them this time.
Stop crying...you sissy.
You
Promised
You'd
Always
Be
There
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I know I make jokes sometimes ... I know I can be an awful person ... But because I read this wonderful work .... I just got back into my delightfully violent mood again ! Lass I do love ya . If this is true , I'd love to have the bastards address ...
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That hurts. I hope to god that's not true. For your sake. :/
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-whimpers- holly...
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O.m.g.
Is that all true?? It's so deep in meaning, and it really hurt
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Stunning.
It's been a long time since I've read a truly well-written poem such as this. You did a great job, though I hope this isn't a true story in any way. I like the texture with the spacing that you made, it adds effect as well. Your word choice, though simple, was perfect for this story.
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Oh. My. God.
Holly....Holy shit Holly.
Just..damn girl.
This is amazing..and...ily.
Ja
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That was a marvelous poem.
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i think so many people, like me, will be able to relate to this poem,
it tells the story really well
the spacing of the important lines grab the attention of the reader.
and i think you have dont incredibly well portraying such a horrible thing as the inability to say no, or goodbye, or just stop.
but thank you.
alex
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A horrible pattern so aptly
depicted in your poem--Great
job--well written. Grabs the reader by
the throat and drags them to
the conclusion. Unddrstanding is
the beginning of rectification.
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very well written. i love it.
xoxo
rawr -
Holy shit...I am very rarely moved by a poem but my heart is in my throat. Never let ant man hit you Holly...you are better than that you you deserve much more...please listen to me whn I say that there is no man who is worth that not me not anyone...I promise you this..as long as I know you, you will not know that pain again
very well done, love ya
-Dustin-
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i think this guy has a couple of personalities the one that hits is the jelous one and the one that makes love to you is the needy one dont leave him type of guy and you cant leave him when he hits you because you know he deeply loves you yet he cant cope with rejection he thinks if he makes you afraid of him he has you mentel torchere is sometimes worse than pysical you can see a bruise when it appears mentel torcher you cant i hope you find find a healthy way of dealing with this and that means him not you
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Juss wanted to comment this again 'ciz yur amazing!! YOU!!!!!!!!!! -
wow if that actually happened to you
im really sorry..i mean im not doubting
it could i just understand..my dad beat my
mom all the time..when i was younger...he would
come home drunk and find something to be mad about
and then it would happen..and she was always making
excuses for him..i understood that she loved him
but it was just like..hes not worth it..
but its over..and imglad..but this was a
great poem showing from the victims view..
awesome write.
love it!
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aww
this is really good... somethin' happened w/ u n someone u loved?_?
...that sux....
I know how it feels...
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Oh .... abuse is not good... not good at all.
Talk to my friend
meant2bfree..
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Powerful.
But the day will come when you won't be able to make the choice or you will decide to leave. I would hope the choice to leave is the one you take. These things never end well. -
whoa
hunny... this makes me wanna cry, really... this is an amazing write... wow...
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Its a really good write. And if this is mirroring real life you need to get him out of your life. No girl (or guy) should ever have to put up with that.
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this piece is so tragic and saddening but also so beautifully crafted. it kept me completely captivated all the way through. brilliant x
Keira
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wow.. what a sad story... just what i needed! Really njoyed it xx
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Well written,
However,
Because of everything I believe and stand for,
If this has been,
Or ever becomes,
Then they should run.
At least then, I can hunt.
I'm sorry, dearie.
No one should ever hurt an Egg like you.
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wow very depressing i can relate to this...i was in a similar situation. but yea i really liked it! i esp liked how u "I
didn't
see
it
coming." wrote like tht.
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This is an incredibly sad story and so sadly one many young ladies can relate to. You don't have to put up with it. You don't need this person in you're life, and you words say you know that. No one should have to deal with this, be strong. get out. Great write, read like a story. Felt like i was sitting there watching the whole thing unfold.
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