A Love's Eulogy; Misery's Rhapsody -

Listen my darling
Look at me…
Just one more time

Music moves around you
Can’t you hear it?

Light follows
Where you lead…
Can’t you see it?

In love with you
Burning,
Born again beside you

I hesitate
Wanting to touch your skin
Flame burns me up within
And light touches my eyes…
Scorches my insides
Leave me stark naked
You can see everything
Paralyzed
I’ve forgotten how to move
So wrapped up in you

I know you don’t feel this…
I know you don’t see this…
Because of all we both did
You shed it far away…
Some long ago day
And if I could
I’d go back…
You know I would

If I could start right now
Even if I could let this go
I’d still walk eternity
For just one more chance…

I want you to know
I would try
Lose my final breath
I would give it my last fight
But all I can do is sit here
Hide my tears
And find some time to bide

And right now…
My eyes… too empty in this madness…
This angry, rotting, sadness...

I won’t forget
And I will ever regret
The every hurt I could have kissed
Every moment I ever missed
And I should have been at your side

And I can try to glow for you
Reflect this life I know from you
What you give me
What wounds you unwittingly mend in me
I’ll keep living for you
Persist in this human ruse

Did you know?
You were always my glimmer
And you remain
My treasured green-man muse
This melody is all I have to give you
And this tiny sliver of truth

You keep making me
Who I want to be
Reminding me of the strength inside of me
All for you
Giving me a reason for sanity
Just being with you
Makes me
Creates me new
I want to show you…

But whispers remind me
My place here
And tears
Screams and winds beat against me
Burst out of me
I can’t stop this…
I’d damn myself for just one more night in your mist
One more chance to experience that first kiss
I’ve said too much…

I fear a life without you near
But I know…
I’ve done it before my dear
I've left you needing me
But have no fear
I’m not leaving you again
I learned well, my lesson
And you can always find me
Right now I just retreat into mystery
Knowing what I promised you
My friend

And I know back then
I should have apologized
Never given up
I should have run back to your side
Should have bathed you in my love
And you might have forgiven me
And you might have made me remember
Who I was supposed to be
Lost in your eyes
Forever

But now is all that matters
It's all we have
And I walk this heartbroken trip
Fingers tracing that final rip
This road I travel
Bumpy, horrid potholes
Feet on cutting glass gravel
Tear filled dips I’ve stopped to cry
Like rain
Asking why…
Knowing the answers
But asking why again

Still I’m rambling on
Thunder rumbling in this song
It’s becoming too long…
But I guess I fear the ending coming on.
In more than one way...

Storms, and rain
I’m blinded by this pain
I many never be able to look outside myself again

In my lying eyes
Your feathers continue to glide
Landing on my hands
As I lay on my side
Falling down on my bed
I may ever feel you somewhere about
Chasing your image in my head

And you’re still right with me everywhere
This is going to take some time
In my hands, your hands rest
Even as I write this endless rhyme

I know I’m dead
Just a ghost
Walking around
Talking to you in your head
Haunting your philosophy
I am your waking, wandering memory
Phantom eyes from your history
And I have no place in your new world…

So I’m going to ease you
From my agony release you 
End this symphony
My misery’s horrid rhapsody

Just don’t forget me
Promise
Should we ever part
That you will ever remember me
And who I am
In your heart