Silence

Would you wake me from nightmares slumber
Only to learn of the death of silence I pray
Heart and soul never to prowl
Upon the scene I often travel
I belong to one they say
One soul connected to my own
Upon the four they seek and stray
I am left confused but that is okay
For I know one day I am to find
That one to walk in line
To hold forever one heart entwine
I find myself locked out not to enter within
This door that blocks the light again
I scream and shout and I even dare to touch
But they tell me I may hold the key but yet able to use
This silence frustrates and at the same it scares me
Am I up the wrong tree
The dogs stop to bay with me
I hold the pleasure of the rain upon my flesh
To dance nude and free holding you close
I want so much the love I read in books
But only she who sees
Can walk in my touch
If I where to say I love you
Would you understand
If I where to say I want you
Miles to mean nothing and time to remain
If I where to say one day I will
Would you wait for me
No -- It's stupid to think it ever could
To mate for life
One soul to another
This is the path I choose
I save my all for you
But I fear it will not come
To far into the fear
To fearful to speak up
To fearful to realise the truth
If our paths mix in time
What joy would happen
What pain would it bring to have to say good bye
Every love has an end
And mind did before it began
It's cold in my arms
This silence I forbid
I shake and quiver
Not from cold or fear
Not from love or hate
But from the silence a oath I did take
But this I can promise
Not just to her but to myself
No more kisses
No more fun
For the next time
It will be with the one
I shall not bed down with a pretty face
I shall not linger upon another caress
I shall not hold hearts of theirs
I shall not take the hand of yours
I shall not forbid you to love again
I shall not hold jealousy to chain you within
I shall not touch nor shall I tease
For the next time I shed my love
It will be for the one to please
I will give my body heart and soul
To no one other then she who holds my wolves to soul
The one to be visited by each of four
To see them clearly as I do before
The wolves that howl in my soul and shield
It is in these wolves I will use the key
But are you ready to set me free
Hold me as I wish
Know me as the silence I remain
This body of heart and soul
This traveler
This fearful girl
I do not know what I am saying with this
Or do I know to whom it pertains
Perhaps that is something you can tell me
For now I will just sit behind the locked door
Within the cold shadow of the silence all the more