Wall of Pain

It’s safe in here,
Inside my wall of hurt.
No-one can reach me;
no-one can pull at my heart strings.
That was what I wanted,
when I built this wall around.
And I done well . . . . .
living this way for so long.
Now I pull at this wall,
and long to pull it down.
For someone has come along,
and now I see just exactly,
What I have done to myself,
building this wall around.
And while no-one can hurt me,
it hurts not to be able,
to reach out and touch him,
while I am unable to say how I care.
So I pry out another brick,
and peer out through the hole.
What a fool I’ve been,
why didn’t I see this before?
While I’ve been locking out,
anyone who could hurt me
I’ve been locking in my pain.
I know now just what to do
just close my eyes and believe,
let go of my fear and walk on through.
For this hasn’t been a wall
to keep other’s away I’ve found.
It’s been to keep me within,
and guard myself from loving again.