Stare-down; i mimicked myself in the mirror and watched for birds. sad, how all i can see now are the bones they leave behind. i took bites out of myself and wandered empty halls, the story behind the pictures leaves much to be desired. i marked finger prints under your canvas, and my core made me question everything; who was the girl who had your mind reeling?
[it sure as hell wasn't me.]
you left imprints in every water glass and i followed you through gold mines, spitting out regrets with every mindless word i said. my skin fell off in awkward blocks, surrounding the cage with everything i wasn't. what hurts worse, regret or betrayal? i tried to find the answer but i just wound up getting lost in the sleeves of your sweater. we crashed and burned, a star chart to nowhere and your voice, the last thing i heard. reckless indifference, the mischief in your iris's always left me wanting more, and i begged you to reconsider my smile.
what more could i want? i lied and told you "nothing."--the truth was shocking and i knew you didn't like it when i told you how i felt. my feelings never bothered to occupy your thoughts. ; when i watched your breath escape through your lips, i felt like i had nothing left anyway; so how could it matter?
my heart felt heavy, not broken or torn, just heavy; like the weight of it could push me down further than i already was. but wasn't that your job? that push-and-pull and never give attitude? you know what i miss the most? i miss that. the fact that i could shove myself in your face and you could blink, walk away. i miss how you didn't even care at all. it made life so much easier.
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sometimes when i think too much, the world just seems to take care of me. i feel placid, aware, silly. you made me feel normal, once. now i don't even know what that is? my sickness is the fact that i can't give up, no matter how hard i try. i always said that you needed to let me go, but really, you never did. because you never had me, and life is so much easier without questions.
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this made no sense, even to me.
i wrote it without thinking.
i don't know where my writing ability has gone, but it's definitely not on all poetry anymore.
:/
i'm sorry babe.
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what more could i want? i lied and told you "nothing."--the truth was shocking and i knew you didn't like it when i told you how i felt. my feelings never bothered to occupy your thoughts. ; when i watched your breath escape through your lips, i felt like i had nothing left anyway; so how could it matter?
this was...intense, brilliant, inspiring, heavy, and a lot to absorb. you are fucking brilliant babe. my jaw hit the floor when i read this...i'm left in awe like lauz. wow. ohhh. i love this.
bookmarking. <3
ily.
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this is
i don't even know what this is
it's beautiful
it's a credit to your writing ability
sometimes writing without thinking produces the best things. sometimes thinking doesn't help at all.
god i'm just. in awe.
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beautifull.... every line with ever word tells untold stories... beautifuly written
my sickness is the fact that i can't give up, no matter how hard i try. i always said that you needed to let me go, but really, you never did. because you never had me, and life is so much easier without questions.
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wow, even if this randomness it was really powerful
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what the hell are you talking about?!
my darlin girl, you have so much talent. I can't even begin to say how amazed I am at your writing. Please, realize, you are stunning in every way possible!
"my sickness is the fact that i can't give up, no matter how hard i try. i always said that you needed to let me go, but really, you never did. because you never had me, and life is so much easier without questions."
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you have random amazing lines.
and the rest are great.
haha
=]
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I'm just left speechless.
I have no idea what to say.
I love you lots and lots.
♥
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How could you say you've got to writing ability? This is amazing and left a hole in my heart. Every word, every syllable is beautiful. You inspire me<3
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