sourXsalt

would you love me
if i was imperfect?
you're trying so hard,
but i'm trying to prove you wrong.

so the dial is LOW.
clockwise we turn,
AMPLIFY THE ANGST.

am i too fairytalenatured for you?
i bleed [romanticism].

[doyouregretthisdoyouregretthisdoyouregretthisdoyouregretthisihateyouall.]

scrawled on this empty hallowed arm length--!
i'm crawling my own way home--!
    (scratchscratchscratchscratch)
and i floated above their immoral dreams--!
and i fell and inhaled and my heart-beat-FASTER--!
and my heart-was-dead and my life-was-a-mess and my love-was-unsaid and my revolution-was-this and--!
    (you're evil.)

i don't want to hear / all the things said behind my back.
    (and even this would prove to be--a revelation in my mind.)
i don't want to know / all the things done behind my back.

so i turn around
    and {speed up}
  and fly a little closer to tease Death.
          i could flutter my wings.
      i would show you everything.
          (stay here forever.)

[oh i swallowed the last woe--
          laughing fit, i took the blade!
(it was -EYELINER BLACK-)
              {would-i-choose any-other-shade.}
    and i shoved it into my eye.]

i hope the sun doesn't come tomorrow!
    (the worst thing?)
the worst thing is...

    it breaks me down so much.

i'm not strong enough for anything this world throws at me.

am i the only one left
[..."the last dose of purity," though for lack of suitable diction--]
    in this town?

    and as if in the midst of a great axiom,
              (and with a great hatred of immorality)
          i wrote:                    "human nature SUCKS."

i need you for like--

[jealous, insecure...
dependent, clingy--
addicted and needy.]

because i'm not strong enough...
for anything.