I hold my tounge for fear of hurting you,
letting you know the pain you've caused my heart.
I can't stand to think about it for too long.
because, I don't want to be angry with you,
I want you to be still be there for me.
and I know, you need me too.
yet.
there are so many times I want to scream at you.
ask what the hell you were thinking.
why.
of all men.
I look to you to be true.
and now.
I'm starting to feel like you have just let me down.
you're supposed to look out for me.
and now, I have to be the strong one and pretend that it's okay.
sure. it's fine.
you starting a new family.
that doesn't include the one you already have.
that your forgetting me.
my whole life.
you have been my best friend.
the one person I can count on.
and now dad.
I feel like you let this lie come between us.
and it's tearing me apart.
like every man.
you,
run away when things get complicated.
so.
I'll smile for you.
act like I'm okay.
when really, I want to find that woman and rip her face off.
tell her to leave my family alone.
but I won't.
I'll just suck it up.
because.
I love you.
Author notes
it's kind of options 2 and 7...I'm not really sure.
my dad is having a baby with a woman I can't stand, and our whole family is just pretending it's not happening.
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I know a friend in this exact situation. The thing is his kids can't stand her but he's very happy with her, so I perceive his children as being selfish. It's his happiness that matters the most. If your dad is miserable with her, God help him now that they're having a child together. If he's happy with her, I would just let him live his life and do your best to either be kind to her, or at least neutral.
Don't mean to be a "Dear Abby" type, but this is so much like the thing my friend is going through, I thought I'd throw my two cents in. It must be a strange thing to watch your father start another family. Unfortunately, it's extremely common these days. A simultaneously funny and sad joke I heard about the typical modern family is, "Honey, get in here! Your kids and my kids are beating up our kids." lol
Good luck with everything.
Mark
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that really sucks..
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It's hard for family to accept when a loved one makes a decison that they don't like, especially if its relating to another relationship. I feel your pain and anger. Like the line about guys always running away when things get complicated.
I know you are angry with him for going with this other woman, but you must know that it's his decision and it doesn't mean he loves you any less, nor really is it your choice to tell him not to...not that I'm having a go, just expressing personal opinion
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Beautifully wrote. -
awww, i'm sorry love.
this was a very powerful write though. =[
i'm so terribly sorry darling, i can't say much else, but i hope things get better for you soon.
♥
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