She wants to be thin with smooth skin
so that she is beautiful when that
gleaming hunting knife pierces her back just left of her spine
and stabs her. She wants the blood to flow bright and healthy over her body
and pool as it runs down her spine.
She wants to look pretty and sexy and be vulnerable.
She wants to lay naked
on her stomach
in bed
with her arms under her chin and be killed.
Feel the blood drip around her curves as her eyes turn sparkless.
Sometimes she doesn't want to die.
She wants to be strung up by chains on her wrists, beaten.
The kind of bruises that turn yellow at the edges
stay blue in the middle.
She wants slashes and scars on her back, her inner thigh, her upper arm,
that aren't her fault. Cut her, hurt her, leave her to die, and she will survive.
When a man looks at her, a good man with a hunger for her,
he will see them
and feel sad for all that has touched her.
A man will look at the raised, ruptured tissue
and he will want to hold her. He will want to protect her.
He will love her.
Author notes
This I just wrote in the past few minutes. I consider it a work in progress.
Please tell me what you think
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Okay, this is scary, but in a way that is Good. i like the examples, and the pain you seem to wish to feel makes me feel it. I think that you seem to have some kind of morbid thoughts that give the apperence of a dark side, but to others you must appear normal. it is my strong belief that nothing in this world is normal, so therefore, you do not fit into this category. i comend you for writing what you feel and what you seem to want. Keep Writing...Good Emotion, and good luck with the rest of your writings.
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I feel you can tighten this up.. but I like your thoughts.. as in.. the way you've spilt them. It seems to work quite well for me actually..
I like your strong words here.. the way you've brought out the idea of masochism intertwined with the image of self pity and the desire for love. In a way, it's a weak soul; one that has passed through many tough times that there's so much pessimism wallowed up. But still, I can feel a tingle of hope.. a hope that someday, she will find love, not that abuses her, but saves her. I hope she does too..
I like the title. Fits perfectly well. Neat write here, buddy! 
I guess it's quite a memorable piece too. Oh, and yeah, trust me, you're not alone. Not that I've been there, but I guess I've felt a slight incline towards the same long time back. There are some thoughts you just can't seem to control..
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This is a very amazing write. You have a way with words i really like like the last line. this is such a good write better then anything i've read. And no your not alone I've been there.
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This is amazing. You opened up so many new areas that so few are able to write about. And you put it in a light that makes you really think. Awesome write!!
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So so interesting.
I loved the ending. It says something about gender roles to me and also about men and how they think of women -
no your not alone
there are a million other girls out there who want the same thing, want to be hurt and rescued by Prince Charming, but just remember you don't deserive it. If if you want guys to treat you like sh it you still don't deserve it
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