Crying Internally

Verse One

I don’t know when it happened
When life became so hard
I don’t know when I’ll heal
From the emotional scrapes and scars
At first I’m in the womb
Just waiting to get out
Next I am a baby
Who eats, who sleeps and shouts
Then a toddler toddling
Finding new, interesting things
Finally a child
Then 10, 11, 12
But then there came to be
The dreaded “One-Three”
And things aren’t turning out well

Chorus:

When did life become so cruel
Is there another way?
Why do parents overrule
Every single thing that I say?
Why can’t people see?
Is this how it’s supposed to be?
Why is this happening to me?
I’m crying internally

Verse Two

I don’t know where I went wrong
Why do they act this way?
What’s so wrong with my choices?
Are they trying to make me pay?
Mama says that I don’t love her
Says I’ll be dancing on her grave
“All I’m trying to teach you,” she says
“Is to love and to behave.”
I love her
Sometimes I want to smack her
I just want my freakin’
Happy ever after
When will all of this end?
When does the fun begin?

Chorus:

When did life become so cruel
Is there another way?
Why do parents overrule
Every single thing that I say?
Why can’t people see?
Is this how it’s supposed to be?
Why is this happening to me?
I’m crying internally

Hook/Bridge:

What is so wrong with a little trust?
Why are my actions so unjust?
What have I done to deserve this?
What is so wrong with a little fun?
Why do I feel like I’m “On the run”?
What happened to my untainted bliss?

Chorus 2x:

Oh, when did life become so cruel
Is there another way?
Why do parents overrule
Every single thing that I say?
Why can’t people see?
Is this how it’s supposed to be?
Why is this happening to me?
I’m crying internally