Stop the Sound of Your Voice

I am searching
For something I'm not supposed to have.
Searching for a life that was never mine.
Searching for someone that forgot me too quickly.
Searching for everything.
Because there is too much that I don't know.
So listen to your heart, it's as steady as a beating drum.
It reminds you, of how
We were once connected.
Of how life onece was.
Of what we were.

This isn't what I wasnted!
(It never is)
PLEASE! Save me from myself.
(No, I like watching you drown.)
I'm in too deep, looking, searching for you.
(That's your fault, you shouldn't have trusted me.)
But...I loved you. And you know I do.
(That never mattered to me. I alway's loved to see you scream.)

It's all true.
I replay the same sond in my head.
It never changes.
Never ends.
And no matter how much I wish I could,
I can't get my head to stop the sound of your voice.