Disgrace?

As the rain drips down my face
I wonder, if i'm a disgrace
If all is lost in a swirl of blood
And all is tossed face down in the mud.
Then, what is there to love?

When all is thrown into a systems hands
A plane with no joystick feels no need to land
When all my emotions have torn in two
All the loves of my life are cold pale and blue
Everything is overwhelmed, and overstrewn

Love hath no rag like my dripping face
As I wonder to myself, if I am a disgrace
When all is lost in my silent tears
All those i've killed with my deadly fears
My heart is guarded, no one can come near.