journey

I cause my own pain
with choices I make
and fear restrains
with reservationsions at stake
where is the line
who am I?

Searching for answers
in books and boxes
crumpled paper
and failing relationships.

Looking for clues
in empty tissue boxes and
coffee-less mugs.

Taking chances
and breaking trust,
is this love,
or is this lust?

Making choices and making change.
Getting involved with the mentally deranged.
Insanity is like a disease.
I need escape, I need to breathe.

Discovering faith,
and trying to forgive.
Hate eats away,
but love conquers all.

Stacks of useless information,
books filled with useless facts,
Classes spent wasting my time,
let me out of this field of mines.

I don't know who I am
and I don't know who I want to be.
All I know is Jesus was crusified,
he died on a cross to save ME.

So I will prevail,
I will presevere,
I will not fail,
because God is here.