Ode to the Black Sun

A murky haze hides the weak lights
That try to brighten the long, lost road.
I thread solemnly, alone with thoughts
Darker than the world around me.
In my world I no longer see a black
Sun, ever watchful, hiding the light.
My feet begin to feel heavy and
My head feels the weight of my fears.
A long open library full of texts,
Authors that I can’t understand.

There is light in this world
Struggling in its valiant attempts
To overcome the haze and
To cast down the black sun.
Something within me keeps me here
In this bitter, punishing world
Of lost love and incompleteness.
In this world I must face even
My most fearsome demon, but
I don’t feel ready.

I haven’t yet abandoned hope
As you have abandoned me.
How can I blame you though?
If I were to put me in your head.
Don’t mourn me my friend,
‘Else you will join me in the mist.