I have tried to write about this before
figure for this, I could try once more
about five years ago on a website I had
a memorial site I was about to add.
A remembrance of lives terrorist stole
in memory of 911's tragic lost souls
I spent nine hours reading one night
researching information, doing it right.
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I'm sure this sounds off subject
but hear me out, it will all connect.
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Read all I could with intense devotion,
that after had me in tears of emotion
Tried to read the list, my efforts in vane
reading half the lost fireman's names
I couldn't go on I had to stop,
afterwards the memorial meant allot
I also started a message board forum
My wedsite grew from 3000 members
to almost 10,000 members in 4 months
the forum averaged 250 post a day
One night a member posted a message
claiming it's contents were a post I sent
it said, "COM", I never sent such a post
I did notice the time of the posting.
It was posted at 9:11 and 57 seconds
I had a chill you wouldn't believe
and an overwhelming tuition that
COM meant, "communicating calm".
I will skip some important details
but a girl I talked to the night I
tried to read the list, came on
MSN messenger and told me this...
She was a paramedic in Arizona
and had trained a kid to pass his exam
he then applied with the NYFD
he passed, was hired and went to NY
The last letter she got from him
was dated 9/11, he mailed it the
day he died in the twin towers
She blamed herself for his death
Said if she hadn't trained him
he wouldn't have been in NY
she quit her job for a job in the ER
of a San Diego hospital,
believing it was her fault
I asked what her station number was
or ambulance number, or?
(9:11:57) and she said the first day
he came into the fire house looking for work
that he was wearing a football jersey,
number 57, I couldn't say I remember
what the last fireman's name on that list
was, I read, before I stopped reading
but I would bet it was his.
I told her, and I believe it to be
that he sent a message communicating
calm, saying that he was alright
a message he knew would get to her.
Everything has a purpose
and there is harmony after death.
her burden was lifted and she has
gone back to training paramedics.
Bubba is in the same realm of harmony
remembering him on his Birthday
as I am sure you do every day
He is also remembering you
and is probably trying to ease your pain.
And I'm sure, his soul walks with yours
and if he could reach you
or when you are thinking of him
you would hear him, he would say,
that every things fine,
he would not want you to hurt
only feel the calm of his harmony.
The harmony you agonize over
wanting for him, he is wanting for you
He'd tell you everything is fine, mom ,
every things ok.
Wishing Bubba HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!
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