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Alcoholism Da Vinci Code

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~ by Gregg Rowe ~

I have not died yet-

but there are times I’ve wished it.

Shingles, Zona, pain:

There’s no blackboard in the sky-

with my name/mission

written; -it’s whatever I

write on that blackboard:

 Self-pity is not for me-

I am here to feel

pain—inspire those around

me—by finding joy

amongst my pain to live/share

these experiences:

G-d Rests At Chaotic Ends;

Honest, Open, Will-

ing; FormerAddict Invests

Twice Here; by doing

the Secret That Enables

People Soberly

to remain; yet, with myself—

Hep C positive

free- HIV carrier-

still; problems with heart

continues, and now stress brings

about shingles—let me Die

Openly—Touch Hu-

mans Empathetic-

ally; Practice Righteousness,

Oh G-d -- Rowe Again--

Mother—save me I am not

dead:  yet I am still

living in pain, an abyss:

I start at the beginning

Author notes

To break Gregg's Da Vinci code think in acrostics in the poem and find them all,and you will see a message (I hope! *smile*

Chonka: 5-7-5-7-5-7-5...7-7 (onji)

lord of the rings:Gregg *smile*

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  • Swan song gold member
    March 21, 2008
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    You put an aweful lot into this Well done and goodluck.


  • Terry-too silver member
    March 15, 2008

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    Since I think the code was solved by others--fortunately, for one whose time is spoken for, I want to commend this poem, in terms of content, at least in part...

    "Self-pity is not for me-"
    Pity is not helpful, even if self-generated. Your courage reminds others so inclined that the old fight goes on, and even with pain when poems of such high calibre result to teach us all what strength there is in stubborn refusal to quit. How do I know that?
    Admiration for you, and in small part own.

    "I am here to feel
    pain—inspire those around
    me—by finding joy
    amongst my pain to live/share
    these experiences:"

    I think I may have said before, "Pain is there to remind us we are alive." But what is the point of that if we don't realize it is an opportunity to remain productive! That awareness is obvious in the fact of sharing you know that joy is stronger than any pain, sharing that fact to remind all the self-centred complainers that complaining only makes the person feel worse in its focus on the negative, thus increasing it!
    "Accentuating the positive" has helped me too, with arthritis of the spine and the chronic pain that has become like background noise even without addicting pain meds. Who else can tell us except one who knows?

    Stress is a killer. I came face to face with more stress since August than anyone should suffer, (and I have been advised to sue for damages if I live so long.) I have angina now, directly caused by bullying-harassment, so I understand only too well when you admit to having "problems with heart." We hold out hands to support each other!

    "And now stress brings
    about shingles—let me Die" It would be easier.
    My childhood-best friend Mary still suffers from shingles, and she would have echoed:

    "Mother—save me I am not
    dead: yet I am still
    living in pain, an abyss"

    The worst pain she has known and it still remains uncured, months and months and months. She feels she is being tested, not why.

    I think the most hurting thing is at the end:

    "I start at the beginning"
    after all these years, all your pain, and the indomitable courage and personal strength that keeps renewing as you fight the crosses you bear.

    If no one could tell, it would be entirely in vain.
    You emphatically do not suffer in vain!

    I am going to phone Mary now.
    Last time she said the shingles were fading...
    I hope she is nearing the end of that.

    Thank you for all you do for us, even for those who do not know its value yet. They will.

    Terry

    --------------------------
    And a post script COMPLAINT.

    Even though it distinctly says "This is not a Review"
    immediately below this comment, and 2 days ago was not intended to count for points, if it got any-- it led to:
    "No points have been awarded for this review because you already got points for it." I am not happy.

    I am glad I did not answer yours solely for points!

    T.


  • Terry-too silver member
    March 13, 2008
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    This is not a review!

    I had a long (repeat long) comment-critique written in a slot like this, and to proof-read it, intended to go first to the top of yours.
    ---------can you see what happened?

    For some reason, I hit "back" instead of scrolling and

    pfft! Mine was gone.

    Forever...,
    at least until I can start again in the morning.
    It is almost 1:30 AM.

    Good night!
    Terry


    • lordoftherings gold member
      March 13, 2008
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      Don't Know How To Do That

      So ssorry Terry of clitch in the program. I have no idea how to check up on stuff like that, maybe ask Kevin the question. Good to hear from you and hope that things are well and look forward to your critique eventually on the poem if you have the energy to re-post. to you and everything is going well as expected on this side. Writing a few things like this and sleeping a lot. Hoe these shingles will go away but the doctor says the pain will be at least a year. Thinking of you and ohters though at this website and am grateful yous are here.

      Gregg


  • Star Shine
    March 12, 2008

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    Although I have not "broken" the code in its entirety, I can see some of the message and it is a strong one indeed. This is so creative with such a clear voice, perhaps partial translation is enough... Well done.


  • movedon
    March 12, 2008
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    clever and insightful. a very intriguing write! well done

    ~Always~
    Miley


  • leaveme
    March 12, 2008
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    G-d Rests At Chaotic Ends; <---- that line is amazing. this id great (=


  • Crowknows
    March 12, 2008

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    Clever

    Using the Da vinchi code as a method for transmitting a hidden mesage, a bit tinny but alas very original.


  • Theactoffailing
    March 12, 2008

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    Very interesting. I have done a Caesar's Grid message in one of my poems too. Mine was petty and unprofessional though, yours seems more clever and about a better topic. Really cool, I'm glad I read it.


  • XxTwigxX
    March 12, 2008

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    This is interesting, I didnt quite get the acrostic message, but I read what others wrote and it makes scense. Your voice is strong, Keep it that way

  • mmook
    March 12, 2008
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    interesting...unique it own right thanks for sharing


  • eleno
    March 12, 2008
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    haha, this is a nice one. i love puzzles.. i have a dozen on my cellphone and i spend hours breaking them level by level. this one makes sense too so its great. . "Is (zt - whats that?) is grace how faith steps HC/HIV do the program" hmm... should i rearranget em or is this it? take care. -eleno


  • poetryality silver member
    March 12, 2008

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    SZT IS GRACE HOW FAITH STEPS HC/HIV DO THE PROGRAM

    Your string of Chocka is certainly in the proper syllables and the code is a bit hard to break because of the "I's". Maybe if the ones not used were small letters instead of caps it would have made it easier to break. LOL But what code should be easy.

    I will pray that you have days where the pain subsides enough to allow you to enjoy life some. My Mom had shingles so, I am aware of their affect on the body. You just keep being you Gregg and know that there are people all abouts that pray for G-d to spin that miracle your way. Great miracles do happen you know.

    I love you and am happy to see your pen to the paper even if it makes my heart swell because of yours hurt.


    I LOVE YOU DEARLY ♥

    Always & Forever

    Renee


  • Crazyhead
    March 12, 2008

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    haha.... very creative...

    this is by far the most unique piece i have ever read... very nice!
    good luck with your program.... and grats for facing your problems rather than running away!!!!


  • Pixielated
    March 11, 2008
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    What I got:

    Either "Grace How Faith Steps Do The Program" or "It Is Grace How Faith Steps Do The Program" ? Or maybe rearranged to be "Faith is how Grace Steps do the Program" ? anyway, if you have time, let me know if I'm close, I'm curious now what your message is.
    ~Pixie


  • katscradle
    March 11, 2008

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    is this it?

    it's how steps of great faith do the program" this is what i get from it i omited duplicate latters and letters that couldnt be made into words then i just unscrambled the what was left


  • Elfin
    March 11, 2008

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    You have indeed got me scratching my head. I am on the right track but as yet not completed breaking the code so cannot give you an answer to your question. it is the middle bit that I am struggling with. Val


    • lordoftherings gold member
      March 11, 2008
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      A Hint for You

      All acrostics spelt out in the poem are capatilized, once you have the clues you should figure out the puzzle!

      Gregg

  • wayter321
    March 11, 2008
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    wow...idk


  • kvwriter silver member
    March 11, 2008
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    A very stunning and troubling read here. Alcoholism is more than the singular and less than free life.

    There is much to ponder here and the chaotic thoughts are hard to tame into a reasonable response. Best to you in the contest. Very powerful write here, even within boundaries. --Kel


  • Wandering Woodchuck silver member
    March 11, 2008

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    A very interesting statement on the life of one stricken with infectious and (as of yet) incurable diseases. Not the sort of poetry I normally read. But, I do work with Hepatitis/HIV prevention. I know what this means. Best of luck in the contest.


  • loststorme
    March 11, 2008
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    lol, I ahve no clue

    I have no clue but It sounds pretty cool

  • SueRee
    March 11, 2008

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    Cycles

    You ride the waves of your pain and take us on the ebb and flow of feeling / numbness/ agony. Thank you for sharing - and making a puzzle of it!


  • acari27 gold member
    March 10, 2008
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    Im afraid i have a short attention span


  • Iridessa MoonFlower
    March 10, 2008
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    Wow! This poem went every way it did not stay in one place. On one topic. It had several different things to look at and it truly overloaded me. But as always thank you for sharing a piece of you here with us on all poetry.. I personally love meeting new people and reading! Look forward to more! Blessed Be! ~~Shannon~~


  • LoveSpell-PurpleRose silver member
    March 10, 2008

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    A very weired since of humor if I may say. You elaborate fully on God, Sex, Death, Disease , Pain , and full of Self pity and Self religiousness . And may your mother be lifted of your personal being of word's in this poem .I find it to be actually that you set this poem up and out here for a real debate or argument from one poet to another. As if you are all of and the only being on this earth and If you had or have all of these thing's ( Di ease ) And wising you were better off dead I really pity us all. Brenda Gae


  • Z1-N-OnlyEvilMonkey
    March 10, 2008

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    Hmm...very interesting...Its really cool how you have set this puzzle up as. I think I am going to have to read it quite a few times before I will be able to figure it out though. Very nice write.


  • grannyeri gold member
    March 10, 2008

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    Interesting puzzle you have given us in these lines - 'fraid I am not on my best thinking when I first wake up either so will pass on solving it just now. Interesting way you do this though - sure someone will find the solution!


  • silver-X-lining gold member
    March 10, 2008
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    I'm afraid that finding the code is over my head this early in the morning...

    the poem is wonderful though; I enjoyed reading it! Well-written, and I loved the theme. And the ending:
    "yet I am still
    living in pain, an abyss
    I start at the beginning"

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