[only time can cure] OR [my character development]

i--

    [gently, dear]

i can't--

    [calm down]

i can't...draw a line without
          sh-sh-shaking!!!

    WHY. said He.

  (i'm fairly certain that each letter of the newsprint just flew at me
          IN RED. AND GRAY.)

          (and it's a good thing that such things only serve to strengthen my faith--)

            (!--)

              (but the colors--the beautiful colors--)

numerous nonsensical notions knitted my mouth with lightning thread,
                              (what a laughing fit. now. just for the record,
                                  let's just leave this out of the foreground.)
    [and i gasped for air!]
          [though i choked between the lines--]
    [and i gasped for air!]
  and i screamed thunder.

there was potential--oh how there was potential!
  i've lost so many i loved--or could grow to love--
    (i miss you so much.)



  and of course i will lose more!



i--well, i--
    (i miss you)
yet the present hour's arctic breath--

    (and sometimes my wings grow numb--[dry, decaying, dead])

i want to be with you where you are!
    (yet i still like it here--when that hour arrives
          as it is, riding gently--
    i would steal it--and i wouldn't like to be here.)
i don't want to be here.
    (i want to be with you!)

perhaps dancing~
    with angels~
  in heaven~

-

  we would dance and dance and dance
      in the presence of the Almighty,
    and everything would be [just] ~perfect~

-








          [forgive me for the inkblot.          (a vinyl teardrop just fell from the ceiling.)
            forgive me that the ink has smeared.
              (i swear) boys don't cry.
                  -maybe this could help me hide.-]

                              (and all the time--i kept inside!--)
                        (for all this life i wiped from my eyes--)

i want to be with you!
    (i want to be there.)

we're done with this.

(i still wish i could have known you better.)