Drained

When I think back on it
I was rather stupid
Not realizing who I was getting close to

I was just sitting there
Enjoying my book
A friend ran toward me
And she tripped over my foot

Of course I got up immediately
To see if she was okay
Then I noticed someone with her
Whom I had never seen

She smiled at me
I smiled back
I'll admit she was cute
And there was something about her

I learned her name
And she learned mine
From that point on
There was a connection

Consistent and
Careless

It was only a couple days later
We were giving each other notes
Total strangers, becoming close
Becoming one being through writing

I wish I stopped it there
But no, I was stupid
I should've thought things through
But I was too caught up in love

When I realized she sat too close to me,
It was too late
She was already robbing me of my time
My dignity
My life

I couln't believe it
I had to let go
But I didn't want to
I thought I would feel lonely

Then
When I had had enough
I rejected you
And I felt awkwardly free
Free from chains that had long imprisoned me
Free to have my now unfamiliar life back

Today
I sit in my room
And strum my guitar
Able to play a new note
And sing a new song

Without having to be drained