Recent thoughts and feelings of you...

Feeling lost and alone in this cold and bitter world without you...
Brought on by my own ignorance and foolishness over a question of wonder...
"What would have happened if I tried experiencing life with her?"

Truth be told, that life would be incomplete without you...
All the warmth and love we shared back and forth, put off...
The happiness and caring we had...leaves me to dwell upon distant memories...

I know I cannot change your mind, nor do I want to for that matter...
I know saying sorry a thousand times means the same as once to you...
So I will say sorry once more for I mean it more than I can express with words...

My feelings for you will last forever and more, living or not...
My life isn't mine anymore...I gave you my heart...
Even though we are two again, and not one I still love you...

I hate asking for many things...including a second chance...
But you're always on my mind, in my heart and in my soul...
You affect me more than you know, or anyone else for that matter...

I have so much to say to you...yet no way to show you or tell
I always melt whenever you are around, your voice chills my skin...
Your eyes burning through me, embrace petrifying.

I cannot describe how I feel for you through mere words...
For I do not know it all...
I feel warmth, love, compassion and passion, caring and nice...

You mean so much to me, whether you know it or not...
You were my world, with you I was free and full of purity...
I felt as if the world couldn't hold us back...

Now, I feel lost and alone in this world without you...
An almost empty shell wandering around depressed and emo...
Lost in guilt and regret for the pain caused to you...

All I want in life is for you the be happy beyond spoken words...
Whether it be with or without me, so long as it is what you want...