Lord, it is the heaviness of my heart, which
draws my soul to lie in the wake of death.
In my darkest hour Lord, I seeketh wisdom.
Is it by wisdom alone that I will find my way!
My way has fallen into the footsteps of man,
I feel the thorns in my bleeding feet,
I walk in the shadow of darkness,
I have not the wisdom to find my way.
It was by the hand of a worish woman
that hath taken away my strength,
batting her eyelids to the husband of my youth.
Where shall I find strength to forgiveness?
In my sight there is hatred and anger,
therefore I can not see the light.
My transgressions are many, yet
I seek Thine forgiveness?
I pray Oh Lord, breath light into my soul,
then only may I find a glimmer of hope.
I fear my strength hath left me.
Is it my transgressions that leaded me
to sleep with eyes wide shut?
Poverty has taken control of my soul,
still, I have risen to the wake of death.
Is it wisdom that shalt make me forgive?
Is it by understanding that I shall forget?
I pray to thee Oh Lord, my God for thus then...
The loins of my bones are weakened
by the darkness in my heart and soul.
Forgive me Oh Lord as I forget my blessings
in this dark day that hath passed and lay before me.
Thank you for the beauty of love in my life.
Remove the thorns from my feet,
I seek to walk in the footsteps of Christ,
Holy Spirit touch my soul
that I may find the light.
It is by Your wounds Jesus, that
I seek Your hand to lead the way.
Leading me to wisdom and understanding
Leading me to forgive and forget.
I beg Thee Oh Lord, do not let the worish woman
or the husband of my youth's transgressions destroy me.
I have known for long that my name
is no longer captured in the book of life.
I ask..."Why have Thee forsaken me?"
Yet it is I that forsakes Thee, so
I seek Thine mercy and forgiveness
opening the door to my heart,
take control of my natural being
so that I may dwell in the spirit of God.
Bless all that cross my path,
let them too see Thine light within me.
I love Thee and Praise Thy Holy Name
and bind all temptations in mine family & friends
I plead the blood of Jesus Christ to flow over them,
whilst you shed them with Thy Glory.
All this I pray to Mine Father, Son & Holy Ghost.
Amen and Amen
Author notes
This is my life and I am sure you can read between the lines. I am not sure if it suits the contest I would just like to share my pain with anyone who will listen.
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- Mental Asylum by RemovedName.
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touches the heart
I know that if we are truly repentant, God forgives us. So it seem that God has forgiven you your transgression. I am not good at reading between the lines, but I can sense the heartbreak you have and the need for God's smile. It is there.
For you to forgive is up to you. Jesus did say 'forgive us as we forgive those who trespass against us', and I take this to mean that if I do not forgive, then I cannot expect forgiveness myself. Not forgiving can only hurt yourself. It does not hurt the other person. When I forgive, I feel the letting go of the torment. Nothing will 'make' you forgive. The door is not opened for you...you must open it yourself.
I am confident that you can ride through any storm. We all have them and it is how we handle them that makes us wise. The path of wisdom is in front of all of us. We know that, and we know how to choose it. Making that first step is difficult sometimes.
The way ahead is up to you. God will help you, but the final countdown is yours to make. Your faith will support you. Good luck. My prayers are with you.
I like your poem. There are a few grammatical errors or typos...I do not like '&', and I thought the spelling was 'whorish woman'although 'whore' would be sufficient. [I presume that is what you mean]... but so what?
This poem has great impact on the reader.
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Yes,I missed you
Your picture certainly impresses me. I think it is the happiest picture of two people in love I have ever seen. -
I am honored
to have read a fellow SAfrican's poem. Your straight from the heart approach is commendable. I believe that this is a prayer from your heart, and I read it as such. The background is profound and it contributes to the contents of this poem. Go with God's grace.
Frans
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A lovely repentance
God has forgiven you my child. I could feel it as I read your wonderful words of contrition. Poverty is the worst form of violence. Ghandi. Best Wishes. I'm really not sure I know what I'm talking about.
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WOW
Ami
I read this and it took me some time as I read it very slowly as not to miss one single word...I am not going to comment on all the correct ways of writing and so on...
I want to say to you that it takes courage to write about this that is so personal and still so raw in your heart...So I do commend you for that...
God is never far from you even when we stray from Him, He remains steadfast at our sides...Draw from Him your strength and in time things will become easier...
Love you always
Tes
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Hi Ami,
You have a very powerful write here, and hopefully empowering as well. Your pain comes through so very clearly, and anyone can realize how much this damages a relationship...and a person's self-esteem more often than not too.
I do believe forgiveness is within your reach with God's help, not for "her" sake, but for your own. Finding some sort of peace is near impossible but so needed, and I hope you can find yours again.
Technically the poem is a little difficult to read because of the wording you've chosen, but I do like it. It feels very personal, very gut-level honest and humble. Grammatically there are a couple of tweaks that might be beneficial, but nothing too major. I don't want to point them out here, but if you want more of a "critique" let me know and I'll IM anything I saw or would suggest.
I don't believe this is something you can ever completely "forget", but to draw strength from your faith and God, find peace, forgiveness, and to heal, yes...it's all within your reach.
Love and
s
~J.
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Ami, put the words in white or they are very difficult to read. You are a buetiful woman and I cannot but shudder at what I could read. To put them is a psalm is brilliant. But then again, this would be your release as you are a poet. I want to know more. Please differ to me in a more private setting. In the mean time adjust the words to white so they can be read. Call me or talk to me on im if you want. I'll give you my number or we can converse on im. You are a dear friend and we can get through whatever has happened. RC
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This takes courage, because having been betrayed and felt anger, I know it is I who strays from the path I should be walking. But as humans we are not perfect.
Very humbling message. I got slowed down with all the "mines" which I do not believe is the correct usage every time, but the meaning still comes through. -
Erm. Well, I do not agree completely. But good job with the diction. The stanzas need alittle gramanomical work though. Good job.
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