you are in my thoughts tonight, as every night

I believe you to be the man of my dreams.
perhaps it's wishful thinking but you strike me
as all I could ask for.
what I want now is just you here.
we could discuss literature -
you could help me with my story.
later talk would turn to more intimate things,
as well as actions.
not much feels better
than knowing you are loved.
it certainly did not happen
like they told me in the movies -
I guess you could say they lied.
but it never does.
no, it went at its own pace.
it wasn't always smooth as butter
but we are allowed to laugh
when it gets awkward.
and that's how it is always okay
to not know what to say,
to be hesitant or just fumble the words.
because you can't take things too seriously.
and we didn't.
there were times when I wanted to hurry it along -
scratch that, there are times.
I want to say things like 'come home already'.
but this is good -
we can persevere through damn near anything.
this is proof.
I told my friend today that
a long distance relationship is
goddamned hard,
but in the end doable.
if you have the right outlook,
the right relationship,
the right mindset,
the right communication skills.
yes, we can do it.
but what I don't really know is
do we make our own fate?
or are we at the mercy of the gods?
I suppose we shall see.