As I sit here in amazement and i look around, i wonder how did i get here and why? Why was i stripped of the only piece of normality in my life, the only thing that kept me sane? Just because my so called father that "loves" me only cares about him self and saving his own ass because he has failed at everything he has done in life. He could care less about me or how i felt. His ass goes to jail and that leaves me where? I feel as tho i shouldn't exist. What purpose was for filled by me being brought into this world? So far the only people that gave a shit about me was my aunt and uncle. Everyone else just sat back and did nothing, nothing about the beatings, nothing about the neglect. Why have i gone through this? Why did i survive? I feel empty and worthless all the time.Why do i feel more love with my aunt and uncle and just fear and resent my parents? so many questions unanswered. Why?
I feel at home yet so distanced.Sometimes i just sit back and watch, watch what i have missed out on, .... the love and care. It is just not fair, nothing in this world is fair, i guess. I am a living example. This wound i bare is nothing a band-aid and a kiss to make it feel better can fix. It is a life time of hurt that will never be forgotten.
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