Im i just your amusement???

Am i just for you amusement,
Is that all i am too you,
was it ever anything more,
was the love ever really true.

I dont know why,
You do the things you do,
But you made feel special,
And i fell head over heels for you.

The thing that makes me smile,
Is the cheesy line b4 our first kiss,
And the bad things,
I tried to dismiss.

I dont know what it was about you,
That made me shiver from head to toe,
Was it really the happiness you brought me,
or was it the coldness from your heart like snow.

I thought you were different than the other girls,
I really thought you could have been the one,
But little did i know that the treatury
Had already begun.

I look back at the times,
when there was something there,
Was i just for your amusement,
I cry out in dispair.