When?

When can I stop
singing your song?
When can I stop
ringing your door?
When can I stop
believing you're more than me?
And when can I stop
breathing all this shit you're feeding me?

Believe me when I say
you're done with ruling my life
I was so depressed
I almost reached for that knife
I've been so cold
a shard of ice
Not one person could melt me
not one smile would suffice

When can I stop
faking these smiles?
When can I hope
you'll be there when I fall?
When can I sleep
without all these nightmares?
And when can smile
A real smile with no snare in my heart?

I cannot forgive you
You had me on my knees
I couldn't break through your empty soul
All I found was an unforgiving plea
You should have known better
I was no fool
Your game of hide and seek
had me crying in the night

So I'm gonna stop
singing your song
I'm gonna stop
ringing your door
I'm gonna stop
believing you're more than me
I'm gonna stop
breathing all this shit you're feeding me