What I Feel For You

My eyes were afraid
to hold your sapphire stare
one glance felt like
floating on summer nighttime air
with a single syllable
of your voice so sweet
your honey flavored words
threw my heart off beat
it was a surreal moment
it was all so new
I felt curiosity
when I first met you.

I knew I was falling for you
and you for me
time moved forward
and so did we
electric shocks ignited
between our fingertips
our eyes connected
and so did our lips
it was a strong
strange emotion
this friendship
mixed with devotion
and soon curiosity turned into trust
after these moments spent with you.

Sparkling rain erupted from the sky
we did not go inside
elation dazzled in your eyes
so we feverishly danced
and laughter shook our hearts
I knew as the rain poured
that we could never be apart
it was so ironic that as the heavens cried
as the diamond tears fell form above
the happiness magnified in us
and the emotion could not be denied
what I felt for you was love.

Months passed and the days grew longer
hand in hand, I thought our love grew stronger
until you stopped under the autumn leaved tree
a flood fell from my crystal stare as you spoke to me
you had your use of me, it was time to let go
I was no longer worth waiting for
you found someone better, you wanted me to know
and those once honey words turned to hate
and tumbled out like stones
and the feeling overpowered me
the feeling of being alone.

My bruised heart hid in the shadows
a sorrowful place clouded with darkness
solid walls with no windows
a fog of sadness
broken promises, beautiful lies, and rejection
play again and again and again
spreading through my memory like an infection
questions claw their way in
how could I not have been worthy enough
to keep your interest in our love?
How do I move on through this
when there was so much happiness and bliss?
in the mind of my darkened dungeon
The idea of what could have been turns into a blur
you abandoned my heart when I needed you
and I felt anger.

Time eventually healed and I felt peace
even though the scars on my heart could still be seen
the anger in my mind made it's release
colors formed,and flowers grew their stems bright green
Is was not long after until you came back to claim your mistake
and said you were sorry, you said that you were wrong
you wanted me to be yours, but I could tell real from fake
through all of this I learned, and my spirit grew strong
My mind transformed, from a dungeon to spring
I looked into your storm colored eyes
and realized that I felt nothing.