The Terrifyingly Painful Truth

The words have left your lips
and reached my sensitive ears
however my mind refuses to believe
what it doesn't want to hear.

The belief you could have ever been trusted
has shattered my heart in two
for the entire truth is
i've always really trusted you.

Now the shadow of my former self
wanders about the day
wondering if she really wants to live
or give up and slowly let herself decay.

The knife you've slowly stabbed through my soul
is stuck in my most painful wounds
as the rock you've encased me in
as lasting and creatives as my life's new tunes.

I watch you stride away
unbroken and without despair
and as you grab her by the hand
you grin at me without a care.

Finally i am completely broken down
and lose my own self-control
as i bawl and sob,
you laugh and refuse to let me be consoled.

I ask myself:

How evil is your real self
the one i never knew
that someone i thought i would love forever
the one that almost killed you?

The past disapparates in my mind
after a couple of years
and finally i realize
you were never worth my tears.